Blur.....feeling?

Do not know why i always feel touch when hearing this song.

花香
风没有方向的吹来
雨也跟着悲伤起来
没有人能告诉我
爱是在什么时候悄悄走开
风伴着花谢了又开
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白
你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
记忆是阵阵花香
我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光
难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里
你比我勇敢
记忆是阵阵花香
一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光
把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在
就像我的爱

A lot of promises i did in the past but not all of it is fulfill. May be you are right, sometime i really not mature as what i should be. We both understand what is the feeling between us, but we did not dare to try it. May be both of us do not want to change the situation now, noth of us feel very comfortable being a close friend. No one dare to take the first step, because we scare of losing each other. That day when heared that you are giving chances to him, i suddently have a kind of disappointed feeling. My mind told me i must be happy for this because finally you can step out from the past experience and starting to accept the other, but why i have this weird feeling? The guy must be very nice and smart. I remember you told me before you will only choose the guy who have better education/job than you, with this you will have the secure feeling.

Still remember your joke to invite me for further study postgraduate together. You said that hope we can graduate together and working together in near future. Because you said now i have better job career than you, and if i can have better education than you, then you will choose me as your bf. Is this a joke or we really hope for? I believe both of us never will try this out. We know each other too well already. We both scare of losing what we having now.

I remembered what our promise during school time. We said that we must always keep contact and never forget each one until the end of our life. You told me you feel save and relax when talking and sharing your feeling to me. Actually i also feel the same thing, but i never tell you because i scare.....Everytime i hearing your story and seeing you crying, i really hope can give you a hug but......we both know...it is always better to stay in current condition. If we are really mean to be together, we will be together in last. :-) Hope you find your perfect partner today. Also for me.....

p/s: siao liao...what i write here???

Memories......

Today suddenly realized that can access CK’s pc, and come across this “kelab bahan” pic taken during our 3rd year study in UTM during Christmass?? Look back to the pic and compare it to now, some people really change a lot.:-) Really miss the time in UTM where we can almost gather together everyday.

CK (Cheong Kheng)
Now working as Lithography Engineer in Infineon (Kulim). Just finish oversea training from Europe, now fully dedicated/addicted to his work. Work days and nights without stop. Although is my housemate now but we seldom meet, may be once/week??

CY (Chun Yong)
Now still in UTM, continue his Master degree under Prof. Esah. Should be graduated in 2 years from now. Have a part time job as a AutoCAD teacher which will give him stable income :-)

SFKoh (Joyce)
Now working as a software support engineer in KLA Tencor. Always traveling around Malaysia (Sarawak, KL, Kulim) and Singapore. A very successful women. Also change a lot especially compare to this picture. At least now with long hair already, hopefully you keep it growth la :-) Is the one who I can always ajak for dinner, but I believe in near future when she transfer to Singapore then I need to find another partner :-(

YLChee (Elaine)
Now working as NPI Engineer in Flextronic Johor. Heard that already got salary increment. But plan to switch company already??? Still with the same behavior when meet her last time during our Cameron trip :-) Hope everything fine with her and keep contact oh.

CSLee (smeagol??)
Also working as NPI engineer?? in Flex. Previously said wanna resign but now still continue to serve in Flex. Hope you finally find what you really want in this company. Become thinner and thinner recently, don’t so dedicated to your job oh. Must take care your health.

KKSia (SKII)
Should be working as Equipment enginner in Flex also. Everyday facing all the lifeless machine :P Heard wanna change company already because starting to feel bore about current job. Hope you can get a job in Melaka la…..Qimonda or Infineon also not bad ma.:) Keep contact.

PPLoh (Lou Poh)
Previously suddently resigned from 1st company. No one know what is the reason (may be some know :P), but hope everything fine with this cheerful gal. Now already got a job in KL and heard rumor that already not available??? Really?? Anyway, wish you a very good luck in your job and life there. Also change a lot if compare to above pic.

SPChing
Working as xxxxxxx?? Engineer in Agilent Penang. Early stage seem like always go to meeting nia, but heard that will start busy already because someone is leaving the company soon and she need to hander the person’s job. Personality still the same (at least what I feel), a good gal waiting someone to approaches her. :P

MHWong (me)
Currently working in Infineon Kulim as Process Integrated Engineer. Still not sure what he want in the future and foreseen will face a relation problem coming soon. Just decided to continue serve in Infineon and rejected offer from Petronas. Smart or foolish?? Most of the time feel lonely in Kulim, dunno what’s the reason. But hope to have someone who can know what he feel and can share the feeling. Hope he can finally get what he want and God bless.