December = Movie Marathon month??

Wah....dunno what happen for me in December....kind of like KCY....the record for me to watch so many movie in 1 1/2 week times....movie marathon week....

1st movie: (Last Breath)
Invited by Kheng, damn lousy movie...and the story line also damn hard to understand...full of suprise...but the ghost is damn scary and the music also screechy la....at least it serve the purpose of haunted movie. * at least go one leng lui sit beside me la..* :P

2nd movie: (Golden Compass)
A movie that i only realise it will have 2nd episode when i finish the movie :-P
A kind of same with Nardia, Eragon etc....invited by colleage.....become super light lamppost...
somemore kena saman bcoz using hp in highway...call from company....from my dearest huzmate Mr....kena give rasuah RM40....sien tiao

3rd movie: (Warlord)
Quite a long time i didn't watch chinese movie in cinema. This is the 1st since..??...(forgot d). But overall the movie quite nice la. Just the story line like normal lo....rate 4 from me la...:-)

4th movie: (Alvin & the chipmunks)
Watched with a talkative ladies. :-) The cinema almost full of family with childred, only we two are teenager...oops....aldult already... This movie recall me of cartoon during my child age..:-) like it..

5th movie: (I'm Legend)
Also invited by my colleage....And again at last become lamppost again for the same yet to be couple...:-P. CK put me aeroplane.....
The story line also not so suprising and the ending also not so conclusive...:-) But overall should give Will Smith a compliment as almost the time only he alone acting...with his dog..-v-

6th movie: (National Treasure 2)
Invited by colleages also....but was rejected by my...too many movie in 1 1/2 weeks...wanna muntah d....but also wil watch with friend soon...:P

7th movie: (AVP 2)
Let see whether can watch in City Square, JB or not :-P

Haha....at last tried already movie marathon.....:-)

情人

前几天又有一位女同事离开公司了。为了和男朋友在一起所以就去了KL和他一起工作了。
上个月也是有一位女同窗离开原有的公司去和她的男友在同一个地方工作了。
真的很为这些男朋友感到高兴，有一位这么为他们牺牲的女朋友。
以前也以为自己会有一样的处境和解决方法（如上）。
可是她还是选择了放弃爱情，也许是我给不到她安全感吧！
不管如何，一切都已近过去了。人是要一直往前走的。
祝妳一切幸福美满。也祝我也可以找到一个新生活的开始。

Happy Birthday

Hope you today everything xun xun li li. Cheerful all the days.
Wish you a very Happy Birthday and get what you dream for :-)
Got no real present for you this year...since you are too far away. So here I attach the recent photo of your lovely cactus.:-)
They are growing taller and taller. Everytime for sure have two new branch come out. Dunno why..:-)

我还是我

前几天遇到了一位老朋友，她对我说“你还是一样没什么变，只是感觉上你好像多了一份忧愁。整个人看起来也神秘了些。”
无可否认在这段时间里我学会了，也经历了很多事物的改变。工作的压力还有感情的问题自然而然的就酿就成一丝丝的忧愁。从开始工作到现在，个人的私人生活都没多大的改变，还是这么的枯燥无味。有时觉得喜怒哀乐都不知如何跟人分享。感觉好像活在自己个人的世界。
曾经有位好朋友问我为什么不去追回旧女友，其实答案是她已经有了新男友。而且她现在的生活每天都多姿多彩，哪会回到我的身旁呢!相比起来，我就真的比她逊色多了。一样单调的生活，一样的单身，一点进步都没有。
曾经想过简单的生活其实是最好的。可是说比作容易的多了。
经历了这么多的起起落落，觉得还是做回以前的我还是最好的。也许这就是为什么我到现在还是没有进步。还是停留在以往的时光里。但是至少我还是我，我还没有遗失自己的本性。

Is time...

13.11.07---Already 2 months......is time for me to let it off.....:-)
突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

伤

左手休息了一个月后，都已经好到七七八八了。只是没有以前这么灵活了。

希望以后不必再进手术室了。

很痛

头很痛。第一次喝到这么醉。不知自己在做什么。迷迷糊糊的知道自己需要人扶回家然后呕了。好像在车里呕了两次。原来酒醉是这么的辛苦。至少我有尝试过。以后就不会这么狼狈了吧！

无题

都已经过了差不多两个月了，我还是一样没把我们的照片从书架上拿下来收。也许我还真的希望可以拯救这份感情吧。真的是个儍子！
看过很多文章说到：
当爱情不在的时候，请大声地祝福他/她。毕竟，曾经爱过。

但是如果喜欢一个人的心也可以退回的话。。。那么该退到哪个地方？。。。因为自己的心已经被喜欢跟在乎的感觉充满。。。

很多时候女人永远不知道男人为什么不会轻易掉眼泪? 因为他们自己知道。他们不是不会掉眼泪，只是他明白，一但眼泪掉下来了，这段感情也就结束了。就好像我和妳一样。

没有你的日子以后让我想起很多以往的事，很多我很后悔没有和妳一起做的事。我很想告诉妳，妳真的不是最好的，但是妳是最适合我的。。。。。。。。。。。今天在工作上遇到最大的挫折，以往还可以对你发发牢骚，现在只能自己吭在心里消化。希望一切会顺顺利利吧。
不知妳在哪儿还好吗？每次对你的问候都子会拿到简单的答复。。。。。。也许知是我一个人自作多情把了吧。

11/10/2007

Tomorrow will be our 5th year anniversary if we are still together...but are we together now? We are not...:'(....should i msg you and share this?
I still thinking of you. Somehow i still hope we can be together again in someday..
My friend yesterday asked me whether i believe in faith? I did believe in the beginning when we meet. I always believe if i do not go for the competition in KL church, i will not meet you in the entire of my life and you will not become my gf. But now i didn't believe faith anymore, because what i believe we can stay together forever can't be real also. Then why should the faith bring us together? I now more believe in realistic relationship......
The cactus that i got from one of my best friend before we end our relationship is growing so fast......but the memories of you still so hard to be removed from me......Suddently i think of you, the cactus's owner...hope you are fine there......i know you always tougher......

想你

昨晚看了小叮噹的卡通片。如果现在的世界有时光机就好了。
如果可以的话，我愿意放弃现在所有的一切一切，只期望可以回到我们在大学时的亲密时光。
可是能吗？

Am i very stupid???

Last two days i watched this movie...Secret from Jay...

小伦(周杰伦饰)与父亲(黄秋生饰)相依为命，父亲是淡江艺术中学的音乐老师，小伦自小在他的熏陶下，拥有非凡的音乐才华。这天是小伦转读淡江艺术中学的第一天，当他跟着同学小依(曾恺玹饰)参观校园时，突被一段神秘的钢琴乐曲吸引。小伦随着琴音引领，走进一间百年琴室，发现弹琴者是一位清秀脱俗的女生小雨(桂伦镁饰)，两人虽然没有交谈，但在四目交投之间，双方都泛起微妙的感觉.

Previously always think this kind of movie is very bad and boring...however, this time i cried after watching it. Cried because i think of our relationship......cried because Xiao Lun finally can stay together with Xiao Yu. But we...

Yesterday i went to buy a neckless for you. This was the promise i made during our 2nd anniversary. Now finally i bought it. But i can't take to you personally, I only can send to you. I hope you like this gift. Hope you can remember our sweet relationship before. This will be the last gift i give you as your bf. I will try to be tough as you...although now sometime when i think of you, i still can't accept what have happened on us. I will try to get use to it......suddently really feel i'm useless......

Quite True....

From forwarded email...

男人本不壞，不是嗎？

十歲以前，
他什麼都不懂，就不說了...

十三、四歲的時候，
開始對女孩有好感，但是那時候他離女孩遠遠的，並且以討厭女孩自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。

十五歲的時候，聽到大人們說某某男人好花，把女朋友甩了，女孩自殺了。
他覺得這人真狠毒，自己將來一定要做個癡情的男人，一定要一生只愛一個人.(during my upper secondary school, i did think like this)

十六歲的時候，他喜歡上了一個女孩，但是他不敢和她說。
仍然和往常一樣，臟兮兮的在灰土飛揚的操場上踢球。(i played badminton)
只在女孩走出校門的時候，躲在二層的窗戶上看她的背影，他覺得她一定是個天使。

十七歲的時候，有個女孩喜歡上了他，但是他離她很遠，心裏面只有自己那個女孩，他覺得看別的女孩都是對她的不忠。 (correct)

十八歲的時候，看了一個MTV，感動得想哭；
他想，如果自己的女孩失去了雙眼，他一定會像男主角會毫不猶豫的把自己的眼睛給她，讓她能看到光明。

十九歲的時候，高考了。(SPM)
終於和自己暗戀的女孩分別，远离去學校的時候，感覺自己離她越來越遠，心像被掏空了一樣。
還在想自己一定不會忘記她，等到自己成功以後一定要去找她。

二十歲的時候，聽到有人講黃色笑話，覺得這人真可恥。

二十一歲的時候，她的回信中告訴他，自己有了男朋友。
他為此偷偷的哭了一個晚上。

二十二歲的時候，他向一個女孩表白，女孩說：「你是個好人，可是我還小。」他想，我的確是個好人，然後他說：「沒關係，我可以等妳。」
心想，我不會像那些花心的人一樣，三年五年我也能等。

二十三歲的時候，聽說自己還小的女孩跟一個帥哥戀愛了。
他很納悶，長大原來可以這樣快。

二十四歲的時候，
他又向一個女孩表白，女孩說：「你是個好人，可是我並不適合你。」(like what i'm now...)
他納悶很久，我是好人，妳怎麼還不適合我呢？

...............yet to be happen...................

二十五歲的時候，他又追求一個女孩，女孩接受了他。他開始很幸福的為未來拼搏，他想，一時的開心只是暫時的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快樂的未來，但是，半年以後，女孩和他分手了，只是因為另外一個男孩會說讓她開心的話。
女孩說：「你是個好人，是我對不起你。」
至此，他似乎明白了問題所在－－他是個好人！

二十六歲的時候，他開始墮落。打扮得時尚而酷，而且漸漸的學習著討好女孩的話。
不久，他有了個女朋友，雖然他對她也很好，可是，他心裏知道，自己並不愛。

二十七歲的時候，
他和女孩分手了。
他對女孩說：「妳是個好女孩，是我對不起妳。」

二十八歲的時候，他嘗試了一夜情，發現別人能做的，自己也一樣。
二十九歲的時候，他學會了講黃色笑話，並且以看旁邊的女孩子臉紅為樂趣。
三十歲的時候，他忽然發現自己變得很有能力追求到女孩，但是卻沒有了愛的能力。

其實每個男孩，本來都是想做一個感情專一的好男人的。
其實每個男人，本來看女孩子都是看臉而不是身材。
其實每個男人，本來都是不會講黃色笑話的。
其實每個男孩，本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠的。

只是，沒有任何女孩愛這樣的男孩，她們覺得這樣的男孩太幼稚，太古板，沒有情趣。 (agreed)

於是男孩開始改變，變成女孩喜歡的那種 嘴角掛著壞壞。

開始學會說甜言蜜語而不是心裏想說的話。

開始學會假裝關心，學會給女孩送小飾物討好她，學會如何追求，如何把握愛情。

或者看破紅塵，遊戲情場，成為女人恨恨的那種男人。 (still learning)

他們可以很容易俘獲女孩子的心，但是他們也會在黑的夜裏叼著煙流淚。 (i will never smoke)

心裏有愛的時候，沒有女孩；有了女孩，卻永遠沒有了愛的感覺！

當男人聽到女人抱怨世上沒有一個好男人時候，
他們不會再去努力做個好男人，只是微笑著擦肩而過。

Dream??

工作了一年，终于有了自己的一间屋。虽然不是很豪华，也不是很大，但我已经很满足了。



有了房子，却失去了我最珍重的感情。还有什么用呢？哒仁诗的理想已经不再存在了。因为，这世上将不会有哒仁诗这个人的存在.

finally....

在爱情面前没有谁愿意提出分手，只是现实实在太残酷，有是不得不分手

后悔……

与前每次参加朋友/学长/学姐们的婚礼时都会看到投射银幕上满满一张张从认识到相爱到结婚的照片。每次我都会想起一定要和你拍多一些照然后就可以像他们一样把照片放出来。一直都跟自己说一定要带妳四处去游玩，一起过二人世界。

正在读书时面对经济的困难，出去的机会也变得很难。唯一的一次就是去金马伦高原，也是我们唯一的一次。做工后，钱有了，可是妳又开始忙妳的毕业论文了。想和妳出国旅行的念头一直都不能达成。

如果我们能有一次机会出国旅行，我们能改写我们的命运吗？我们能不分开吗？如果能的话，我愿意用我一生的成功来换取我们在一起的机会。但是我能吗？我连想见妳最后一次的机会都没有了。

命运真的是这么的愚弄人吗？天主真的不祝福我们吗？为什么我们一定要分开呢？求你教我要如何做呢？我要如何做才能让我们在一起呢？还是我们根本都不该相爱，根本都不该认识对方。主，为什么您要让我们认识对方呢？然后又让命运的安排来拆散我们呢？难道是我还不够爱她吗？

思念？四年？

曾经有一段真挚的爱情摆在我的面前，我没有珍惜，等到失去的时候我才追悔莫及。
后来我学会了珍惜，当第一次和妳交往后，我告诉自己一定要好好的对待妳，爱护你。

在我的心目中妳是最完美的。一直都很希望以后都可以和妳在一起。希望我们可以结为夫妻，快乐幸福的过一辈子。我不期望以后住大屋，做大车，只希望我们可以永远在一起。快乐的过日子。

很多人说……我不知如何写下去了。我只知道我很伤心，我很想哭，很想发泄，但我却什么都做不到。我唯一知道的是我很爱你，很想和你在一起。虽然是预知的分手，但我真的很放不下。真的很想挽留这份感情，但我能做什么呢？真的很想哭，想发泄……

Worry.........

I am worrying about you....i didnt get any reply on all the msg i sent to you?
Afraid to call you as you might be busy on your workshop......why you didnt reply me..?

Thinking of you...

I dunno what is in my mind now. Sometime i'm totally blur, i dont know what i want. But i clearly know that i'm thinking of you. I'm clear that when you around i will feel more happy and looks cheerful...missing you...
Hope you know that i 'm thinking of you....

Super Hero/Villain

Correct meh? I also dont know....blur...

Your results:
You are Green Lantern

Green Lantern 90% Iron Man 70% Superman 65% Hulk 60% Robin 50% The Flash 50% Supergirl 45% Batman 40% Catwoman 40% Spider-Man 30% Wonder Woman 20%

Hot-headed. You have strong will power and a good imagination.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

Bad guy?? correct??

Your results:
You are The Joker

The Joker 56% Riddler 54% Mr. Freeze 44% Venom 43% Dr. Doom 42% Magneto 41% Lex Luthor 40% Apocalypse 35% Kingpin 28% Dark Phoenix 26% Juggernaut 25% Green Goblin 25% Poison Ivy 21% Catwoman 17% Mystique 17% Two-Face 17%

The Clown Prince of Crime. You are a brilliant mastermind but are criminally insane. You love to joke around while accomplishing the task at hand.

Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test

选择

又是匆忙的过了一天。有时真的不知自己到底为了什么这么忙。：（
接下来的两天还要继续上一系列的workshop。
到底自己要的是什么呢？小老板已经出声希望我会继续和他一起接下一个project。
大老板又希望我去做另一样完全不同的东西。
1) Continue work as PI and trasferring new tech?
2) Totally leave the current organization and join the newly formed FE/BE technical expert organization? Which only selected people can join?
3) Go to Sabah?Stay all over again?

忽然间想起你。没有你在的日子真的是有点寂寞。每天忙碌的生活但却不知自己在追求什么。
不知你在那边好吗？也许我真的需要习惯自己一个人生活。如果你在就好。。。。。。。

Blur.....feeling?

Do not know why i always feel touch when hearing this song.

花香
风没有方向的吹来
雨也跟着悲伤起来
没有人能告诉我
爱是在什么时候悄悄走开
风伴着花谢了又开
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白
你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
记忆是阵阵花香
我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光
难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里
你比我勇敢
记忆是阵阵花香
一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光
把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在
就像我的爱

A lot of promises i did in the past but not all of it is fulfill. May be you are right, sometime i really not mature as what i should be. We both understand what is the feeling between us, but we did not dare to try it. May be both of us do not want to change the situation now, noth of us feel very comfortable being a close friend. No one dare to take the first step, because we scare of losing each other. That day when heared that you are giving chances to him, i suddently have a kind of disappointed feeling. My mind told me i must be happy for this because finally you can step out from the past experience and starting to accept the other, but why i have this weird feeling? The guy must be very nice and smart. I remember you told me before you will only choose the guy who have better education/job than you, with this you will have the secure feeling.

Still remember your joke to invite me for further study postgraduate together. You said that hope we can graduate together and working together in near future. Because you said now i have better job career than you, and if i can have better education than you, then you will choose me as your bf. Is this a joke or we really hope for? I believe both of us never will try this out. We know each other too well already. We both scare of losing what we having now.

I remembered what our promise during school time. We said that we must always keep contact and never forget each one until the end of our life. You told me you feel save and relax when talking and sharing your feeling to me. Actually i also feel the same thing, but i never tell you because i scare.....Everytime i hearing your story and seeing you crying, i really hope can give you a hug but......we both know...it is always better to stay in current condition. If we are really mean to be together, we will be together in last. :-) Hope you find your perfect partner today. Also for me.....

p/s: siao liao...what i write here???

Memories......

Today suddenly realized that can access CK’s pc, and come across this “kelab bahan” pic taken during our 3rd year study in UTM during Christmass?? Look back to the pic and compare it to now, some people really change a lot.:-) Really miss the time in UTM where we can almost gather together everyday.

CK (Cheong Kheng)
Now working as Lithography Engineer in Infineon (Kulim). Just finish oversea training from Europe, now fully dedicated/addicted to his work. Work days and nights without stop. Although is my housemate now but we seldom meet, may be once/week??

CY (Chun Yong)
Now still in UTM, continue his Master degree under Prof. Esah. Should be graduated in 2 years from now. Have a part time job as a AutoCAD teacher which will give him stable income :-)

SFKoh (Joyce)
Now working as a software support engineer in KLA Tencor. Always traveling around Malaysia (Sarawak, KL, Kulim) and Singapore. A very successful women. Also change a lot especially compare to this picture. At least now with long hair already, hopefully you keep it growth la :-) Is the one who I can always ajak for dinner, but I believe in near future when she transfer to Singapore then I need to find another partner :-(

YLChee (Elaine)
Now working as NPI Engineer in Flextronic Johor. Heard that already got salary increment. But plan to switch company already??? Still with the same behavior when meet her last time during our Cameron trip :-) Hope everything fine with her and keep contact oh.

CSLee (smeagol??)
Also working as NPI engineer?? in Flex. Previously said wanna resign but now still continue to serve in Flex. Hope you finally find what you really want in this company. Become thinner and thinner recently, don’t so dedicated to your job oh. Must take care your health.

KKSia (SKII)
Should be working as Equipment enginner in Flex also. Everyday facing all the lifeless machine :P Heard wanna change company already because starting to feel bore about current job. Hope you can get a job in Melaka la…..Qimonda or Infineon also not bad ma.:) Keep contact.

PPLoh (Lou Poh)
Previously suddently resigned from 1st company. No one know what is the reason (may be some know :P), but hope everything fine with this cheerful gal. Now already got a job in KL and heard rumor that already not available??? Really?? Anyway, wish you a very good luck in your job and life there. Also change a lot if compare to above pic.

SPChing
Working as xxxxxxx?? Engineer in Agilent Penang. Early stage seem like always go to meeting nia, but heard that will start busy already because someone is leaving the company soon and she need to hander the person’s job. Personality still the same (at least what I feel), a good gal waiting someone to approaches her. :P

MHWong (me)
Currently working in Infineon Kulim as Process Integrated Engineer. Still not sure what he want in the future and foreseen will face a relation problem coming soon. Just decided to continue serve in Infineon and rejected offer from Petronas. Smart or foolish?? Most of the time feel lonely in Kulim, dunno what’s the reason. But hope to have someone who can know what he feel and can share the feeling. Hope he can finally get what he want and God bless.

夜深人静

人，是不是都会在无所事事的时候无私乱想？想起来我们都已经认识彼此多年了，曾经何时我们无所不谈，每天都很期望知道你的消息。每当收到你的短信时真的很兴奋。自认有想过要追求过你，也有了实际的行动，可惜都失败了。也许我们真的是有缘无份吧。
就这样我有了自己的另一半，你也在不久的过后也深深的被他吸引了。那时的我真的很享受第一次的恋爱。我猜你也是一样吧！同时，对你的认识也越来越迷糊了。
毕业后没想到你还会留在这儿工作。也许因为彼此的伴侣都不在身旁，加上在新的工作环境又没有很好的朋友。我们的关系就越来越好了。也许这就是寂寞的缘故吧。不知不觉地，我习惯了有你在我的身旁。你呢？会有这样的感觉吗？
记得你曾经对我说你不要让一个人影响你每天的心情，所以你都会尝试认识多一些朋友。但是你有没有发觉每当我们在一起时，你都会很高兴？还是这是我的错觉呢？和你在一起久了就越来越感受到你很像我心目中的女神。一直都跟自己说不可有这样的想法，因为这样是很对不起自己的另一半的。。。
直到有一天你告诉我和他分手了，我都还一直的鼓励你和他和好。但心目中真的是这样的想法吗？也就是这样的缘故，我们也越来越常通讯了。每天我都习惯听到你的笑声了。
一年后，他回来了，你也接受回他了。感觉上好像一点心酸的，也许我真地对你有点感觉了。你呢？我可以肯定地说你现在一定很快乐的，现在在你心目中也许根本就没有我的存在吧。也难怪你的，我只不过是你的一位普通朋友罢了吧。
一切回到夜深人静，我会慢慢的习惯不再每次送短信给你。也许你就不会察觉到有一个人慢慢的开始对你有点感觉然后却把它埋藏起来。也许你更本就不会看到我写的这篇短章吧！就算你看到了，你会觉得那个可爱的女孩就是你吗？

爱你却让我疲惫至极

爱永远没有错,但爱有时候需要学会放弃.
缘份尽分，我不能强求；你要走了，我无力挽留......
我记得离开你时的那个日子，没有星星的月夜……
不知道我还有没有机会再很近很近的靠近你，我会痛快地哭一场。其实男儿有泪是没有罪的，因为男儿一样有感情。对么？

转自：雨后池塘

答应我,看完了,不允许哭!

和蓝分手了，蓝是个很好的女孩，很漂亮也很温柔，虽然很多朋友说我离开她很傻，可我还是放手了，虽然我很舍不的。 　　第一天， 她没有起床，把自己用被子捂的严严实实的，她宿舍的人都不敢去安慰她，她一天都没有吃饭，连刷牙洗脸都没有，晚上睡觉的时候我听到她在被子里抽泣。 　　第二天， 今天她吃饭了，是她的宿舍同学强制性的让她吃的，她的眼眶红红的，我总说她是个爱哭鬼，她每次都噘着小嘴说她不是。 　　第三天，今天她穿的很妖艳，走进一家酒吧，喝了好多酒，用一种很诱惑的眼光环视全场，好多人上来搭腔“小姐，你好漂亮啊”。她喝了很多，当一个年纪可以做她爸爸的男人对她说“小姐，我送你回家吧”的时候她把手中的酒全泼在他的脸上，那个该死的老头扬起他的手掌就要打下去的时候，小睦他们来了，救了蓝，这一切我都知道，我就在酒吧的一个角落里看着。 　　第四天， 今天她早早就起床了，忙忙碌碌一上午，然后把自己关在浴室里好久，当舍友们踹门进去的时候都惊呼到：好干净啊。 　　第五天， 她开始学习了，其实她原来学习很好，我们开始后受我影响她的成绩也退步了，这也好，转移一下注意力，恢复的也快。 　　三个月后。。。。她做了学生会主席，她越来越能干，也开朗了不少，马上她就要考研了。 　　一年后。。。。。在她身边的男人很多，比我优秀的也很多，可她根本没在意过，不过她和凌很好，校园里传他们的关系很暧昧。她只是把他当哥哥，可是流言是挡不住的。 　　三年后。。。。。她要结婚了，新郎是凌，她在写结婚请贴，一张，两张，三张，，，写到第十二张的时候她哭了，趴在桌上眼泪完全抑制不住，我上前一看，所有的喜贴新郎写的都是我的名字。　　 　　我也很想哭，可是鬼魂是不能哭的，我没有眼泪。 　　三年前，我横穿马路，遇上车祸，手里提着要给她庆祝生日的蛋糕．．．．．．转自：雨后池塘（www.YuHou.net） ...nice webpage

Hurt....

Today I really not in a mood. It is really a sad day.
What will you do when your someone you love told you these:
1) I found out that i feel more happy when alone and no need to think of any relationship
2) This week I already planned to go do facial with my friend and I feel not very well, so dont come to find me. I will feel presure.
3) I want to tell you that in near future i might be reject you as my bf since i enjoy one person life now and i tell you earlier so that you wont blame me later.
4) I dont want more people to know our relationship because I dont want to explain to them/ dont want them to say anything when i broke up with you.
5) If you planned to find me, pls let me know earlier so that i make sure dont have appointment with my friends.
6) I will not have time to accompany you because i have date with my friend. So, pls dont come to find me.
7) I feel no mood this week and dont want you to find me.
8) I have no confidence in this relationship, so pls dont blame me if we brake up.

What will you do? Do you ever face these before? Are this normal for a relationship?