Blur.....feeling?

Do not know why i always feel touch when hearing this song.

花香
风没有方向的吹来
雨也跟着悲伤起来
没有人能告诉我
爱是在什么时候悄悄走开
风伴着花谢了又开
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白
你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
记忆是阵阵花香
我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光
难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里
你比我勇敢
记忆是阵阵花香
一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光
把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在
就像我的爱

A lot of promises i did in the past but not all of it is fulfill. May be you are right, sometime i really not mature as what i should be. We both understand what is the feeling between us, but we did not dare to try it. May be both of us do not want to change the situation now, noth of us feel very comfortable being a close friend. No one dare to take the first step, because we scare of losing each other. That day when heared that you are giving chances to him, i suddently have a kind of disappointed feeling. My mind told me i must be happy for this because finally you can step out from the past experience and starting to accept the other, but why i have this weird feeling? The guy must be very nice and smart. I remember you told me before you will only choose the guy who have better education/job than you, with this you will have the secure feeling.

Still remember your joke to invite me for further study postgraduate together. You said that hope we can graduate together and working together in near future. Because you said now i have better job career than you, and if i can have better education than you, then you will choose me as your bf. Is this a joke or we really hope for? I believe both of us never will try this out. We know each other too well already. We both scare of losing what we having now.

I remembered what our promise during school time. We said that we must always keep contact and never forget each one until the end of our life. You told me you feel save and relax when talking and sharing your feeling to me. Actually i also feel the same thing, but i never tell you because i scare.....Everytime i hearing your story and seeing you crying, i really hope can give you a hug but......we both know...it is always better to stay in current condition. If we are really mean to be together, we will be together in last. :-) Hope you find your perfect partner today. Also for me.....

p/s: siao liao...what i write here???