有了房子，却失去了我最珍重的感情。还有什么用呢？哒仁诗的理想已经不再存在了。因为，这世上将不会有哒仁诗这个人的存在.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Dream??
工作了一年，终于有了自己的一间屋。虽然不是很豪华，也不是很大，但我已经很满足了。
有了房子，却失去了我最珍重的感情。还有什么用呢？哒仁诗的理想已经不再存在了。因为，这世上将不会有哒仁诗这个人的存在.
有了房子，却失去了我最珍重的感情。还有什么用呢？哒仁诗的理想已经不再存在了。因为，这世上将不会有哒仁诗这个人的存在.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
后悔……
与前每次参加朋友/学长/学姐们的婚礼时都会看到投射银幕上满满一张张从认识到相爱到结婚的照片。每次我都会想起一定要和你拍多一些照然后就可以像他们一样把照片放出来。一直都跟自己说一定要带妳四处去游玩，一起过二人世界。
正在读书时面对经济的困难，出去的机会也变得很难。唯一的一次就是去金马伦高原，也是我们唯一的一次。做工后，钱有了，可是妳又开始忙妳的毕业论文了。想和妳出国旅行的念头一直都不能达成。
如果我们能有一次机会出国旅行，我们能改写我们的命运吗？我们能不分开吗？如果能的话，我愿意用我一生的成功来换取我们在一起的机会。但是我能吗？我连想见妳最后一次的机会都没有了。
命运真的是这么的愚弄人吗？天主真的不祝福我们吗？为什么我们一定要分开呢？求你教我要如何做呢？我要如何做才能让我们在一起呢？还是我们根本都不该相爱，根本都不该认识对方。主，为什么您要让我们认识对方呢？然后又让命运的安排来拆散我们呢？难道是我还不够爱她吗？
正在读书时面对经济的困难，出去的机会也变得很难。唯一的一次就是去金马伦高原，也是我们唯一的一次。做工后，钱有了，可是妳又开始忙妳的毕业论文了。想和妳出国旅行的念头一直都不能达成。
如果我们能有一次机会出国旅行，我们能改写我们的命运吗？我们能不分开吗？如果能的话，我愿意用我一生的成功来换取我们在一起的机会。但是我能吗？我连想见妳最后一次的机会都没有了。
命运真的是这么的愚弄人吗？天主真的不祝福我们吗？为什么我们一定要分开呢？求你教我要如何做呢？我要如何做才能让我们在一起呢？还是我们根本都不该相爱，根本都不该认识对方。主，为什么您要让我们认识对方呢？然后又让命运的安排来拆散我们呢？难道是我还不够爱她吗？
Thursday, September 13, 2007
思念？四年？
曾经有一段真挚的爱情摆在我的面前，我没有珍惜，等到失去的时候我才追悔莫及。
后来我学会了珍惜，当第一次和妳交往后，我告诉自己一定要好好的对待妳，爱护你。
在我的心目中妳是最完美的。一直都很希望以后都可以和妳在一起。希望我们可以结为夫妻，快乐幸福的过一辈子。我不期望以后住大屋，做大车，只希望我们可以永远在一起。快乐的过日子。
很多人说……我不知如何写下去了。我只知道我很伤心，我很想哭，很想发泄，但我却什么都做不到。我唯一知道的是我很爱你，很想和你在一起。虽然是预知的分手，但我真的很放不下。真的很想挽留这份感情，但我能做什么呢？真的很想哭，想发泄……
后来我学会了珍惜，当第一次和妳交往后，我告诉自己一定要好好的对待妳，爱护你。
在我的心目中妳是最完美的。一直都很希望以后都可以和妳在一起。希望我们可以结为夫妻，快乐幸福的过一辈子。我不期望以后住大屋，做大车，只希望我们可以永远在一起。快乐的过日子。
很多人说……我不知如何写下去了。我只知道我很伤心，我很想哭，很想发泄，但我却什么都做不到。我唯一知道的是我很爱你，很想和你在一起。虽然是预知的分手，但我真的很放不下。真的很想挽留这份感情，但我能做什么呢？真的很想哭，想发泄……
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Worry.........
I am worrying about you....i didnt get any reply on all the msg i sent to you?
Afraid to call you as you might be busy on your workshop......why you didnt reply me..?
Afraid to call you as you might be busy on your workshop......why you didnt reply me..?
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Thinking of you...
I dunno what is in my mind now. Sometime i'm totally blur, i dont know what i want. But i clearly know that i'm thinking of you. I'm clear that when you around i will feel more happy and looks cheerful...missing you...
Hope you know that i 'm thinking of you....
Hope you know that i 'm thinking of you....
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Super Hero/Villain
Correct meh? I also dont know....blur...
Your results:
You are Green Lantern
Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz
Bad guy?? correct??
Your results:
You are The Joker
Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test
Your results:
You are Green Lantern
| Hot-headed. You have strong will power and a good imagination.  |
Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz
Bad guy?? correct??
Your results:
You are The Joker
| The Clown Prince of Crime. You are a brilliant mastermind but are criminally insane. You love to joke around while accomplishing the task at hand. |
Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
选择
又是匆忙的过了一天。有时真的不知自己到底为了什么这么忙。：（
接下来的两天还要继续上一系列的workshop。
到底自己要的是什么呢？小老板已经出声希望我会继续和他一起接下一个project。
大老板又希望我去做另一样完全不同的东西。
1) Continue work as PI and trasferring new tech?
2) Totally leave the current organization and join the newly formed FE/BE technical expert organization? Which only selected people can join?
3) Go to Sabah?Stay all over again?
忽然间想起你。没有你在的日子真的是有点寂寞。每天忙碌的生活但却不知自己在追求什么。
不知你在那边好吗？也许我真的需要习惯自己一个人生活。如果你在就好。。。。。。。
接下来的两天还要继续上一系列的workshop。
到底自己要的是什么呢？小老板已经出声希望我会继续和他一起接下一个project。
大老板又希望我去做另一样完全不同的东西。
1) Continue work as PI and trasferring new tech?
2) Totally leave the current organization and join the newly formed FE/BE technical expert organization? Which only selected people can join?
3) Go to Sabah?Stay all over again?
忽然间想起你。没有你在的日子真的是有点寂寞。每天忙碌的生活但却不知自己在追求什么。
不知你在那边好吗？也许我真的需要习惯自己一个人生活。如果你在就好。。。。。。。
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Blur.....feeling?
Do not know why i always feel touch when hearing this song.
花香
风没有方向的吹来
雨也跟着悲伤起来
没有人能告诉我
爱是在什么时候悄悄走开
风伴着花谢了又开
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白
你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
记忆是阵阵花香
我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光
难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里
你比我勇敢
记忆是阵阵花香
一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光
把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在
就像我的爱
A lot of promises i did in the past but not all of it is fulfill. May be you are right, sometime i really not mature as what i should be. We both understand what is the feeling between us, but we did not dare to try it. May be both of us do not want to change the situation now, noth of us feel very comfortable being a close friend. No one dare to take the first step, because we scare of losing each other. That day when heared that you are giving chances to him, i suddently have a kind of disappointed feeling. My mind told me i must be happy for this because finally you can step out from the past experience and starting to accept the other, but why i have this weird feeling? The guy must be very nice and smart. I remember you told me before you will only choose the guy who have better education/job than you, with this you will have the secure feeling.
Still remember your joke to invite me for further study postgraduate together. You said that hope we can graduate together and working together in near future. Because you said now i have better job career than you, and if i can have better education than you, then you will choose me as your bf. Is this a joke or we really hope for? I believe both of us never will try this out. We know each other too well already. We both scare of losing what we having now.
I remembered what our promise during school time. We said that we must always keep contact and never forget each one until the end of our life. You told me you feel save and relax when talking and sharing your feeling to me. Actually i also feel the same thing, but i never tell you because i scare.....Everytime i hearing your story and seeing you crying, i really hope can give you a hug but......we both know...it is always better to stay in current condition. If we are really mean to be together, we will be together in last. :-) Hope you find your perfect partner today. Also for me.....
p/s: siao liao...what i write here???
花香
风没有方向的吹来
雨也跟着悲伤起来
没有人能告诉我
爱是在什么时候悄悄走开
风伴着花谢了又开
雨把眼泪落向大海
现在的我才明白
你抱着紫色的梦选择等待
记忆是阵阵花香
我们说好谁都不能忘
守着黑夜的阳光
难过却假装坚强
等待的日子里
你比我勇敢
记忆是阵阵花香
一起走过永远不能忘
你的温柔是阳光
把我的未来填满
提醒我花香常在
就像我的爱
A lot of promises i did in the past but not all of it is fulfill. May be you are right, sometime i really not mature as what i should be. We both understand what is the feeling between us, but we did not dare to try it. May be both of us do not want to change the situation now, noth of us feel very comfortable being a close friend. No one dare to take the first step, because we scare of losing each other. That day when heared that you are giving chances to him, i suddently have a kind of disappointed feeling. My mind told me i must be happy for this because finally you can step out from the past experience and starting to accept the other, but why i have this weird feeling? The guy must be very nice and smart. I remember you told me before you will only choose the guy who have better education/job than you, with this you will have the secure feeling.
Still remember your joke to invite me for further study postgraduate together. You said that hope we can graduate together and working together in near future. Because you said now i have better job career than you, and if i can have better education than you, then you will choose me as your bf. Is this a joke or we really hope for? I believe both of us never will try this out. We know each other too well already. We both scare of losing what we having now.
I remembered what our promise during school time. We said that we must always keep contact and never forget each one until the end of our life. You told me you feel save and relax when talking and sharing your feeling to me. Actually i also feel the same thing, but i never tell you because i scare.....Everytime i hearing your story and seeing you crying, i really hope can give you a hug but......we both know...it is always better to stay in current condition. If we are really mean to be together, we will be together in last. :-) Hope you find your perfect partner today. Also for me.....
p/s: siao liao...what i write here???
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Memories......
Today suddenly realized that can access CK’s pc, and come across this “kelab bahan” pic taken during our 3rd year study in UTM during Christmass?? Look back to the pic and compare it to now, some people really change a lot.:-) Really miss the time in UTM where we can almost gather together everyday.
CK (Cheong Kheng)
Now working as Lithography Engineer in Infineon (Kulim). Just finish oversea training from Europe, now fully dedicated/addicted to his work. Work days and nights without stop. Although is my housemate now but we seldom meet, may be once/week??
CY (Chun Yong)
Now still in UTM, continue his Master degree under Prof. Esah. Should be graduated in 2 years from now. Have a part time job as a AutoCAD teacher which will give him stable income :-)
SFKoh (Joyce)
Now working as a software support engineer in KLA Tencor. Always traveling around Malaysia (Sarawak, KL, Kulim) and Singapore. A very successful women. Also change a lot especially compare to this picture. At least now with long hair already, hopefully you keep it growth la :-) Is the one who I can always ajak for dinner, but I believe in near future when she transfer to Singapore then I need to find another partner :-(
YLChee (Elaine)
Now working as NPI Engineer in Flextronic Johor. Heard that already got salary increment. But plan to switch company already??? Still with the same behavior when meet her last time during our Cameron trip :-) Hope everything fine with her and keep contact oh.
CSLee (smeagol??)
Also working as NPI engineer?? in Flex. Previously said wanna resign but now still continue to serve in Flex. Hope you finally find what you really want in this company. Become thinner and thinner recently, don’t so dedicated to your job oh. Must take care your health.
KKSia (SKII)
Should be working as Equipment enginner in Flex also. Everyday facing all the lifeless machine :P Heard wanna change company already because starting to feel bore about current job. Hope you can get a job in Melaka la…..Qimonda or Infineon also not bad ma.:) Keep contact.
PPLoh (Lou Poh)
Previously suddently resigned from 1st company. No one know what is the reason (may be some know :P), but hope everything fine with this cheerful gal. Now already got a job in KL and heard rumor that already not available??? Really?? Anyway, wish you a very good luck in your job and life there. Also change a lot if compare to above pic.
SPChing
Working as xxxxxxx?? Engineer in Agilent Penang. Early stage seem like always go to meeting nia, but heard that will start busy already because someone is leaving the company soon and she need to hander the person’s job. Personality still the same (at least what I feel), a good gal waiting someone to approaches her. :P
MHWong (me)
Currently working in Infineon Kulim as Process Integrated Engineer. Still not sure what he want in the future and foreseen will face a relation problem coming soon. Just decided to continue serve in Infineon and rejected offer from Petronas. Smart or foolish?? Most of the time feel lonely in Kulim, dunno what’s the reason. But hope to have someone who can know what he feel and can share the feeling. Hope he can finally get what he want and God bless.
CK (Cheong Kheng)
Now working as Lithography Engineer in Infineon (Kulim). Just finish oversea training from Europe, now fully dedicated/addicted to his work. Work days and nights without stop. Although is my housemate now but we seldom meet, may be once/week??
CY (Chun Yong)
Now still in UTM, continue his Master degree under Prof. Esah. Should be graduated in 2 years from now. Have a part time job as a AutoCAD teacher which will give him stable income :-)
SFKoh (Joyce)
Now working as a software support engineer in KLA Tencor. Always traveling around Malaysia (Sarawak, KL, Kulim) and Singapore. A very successful women. Also change a lot especially compare to this picture. At least now with long hair already, hopefully you keep it growth la :-) Is the one who I can always ajak for dinner, but I believe in near future when she transfer to Singapore then I need to find another partner :-(
YLChee (Elaine)
Now working as NPI Engineer in Flextronic Johor. Heard that already got salary increment. But plan to switch company already??? Still with the same behavior when meet her last time during our Cameron trip :-) Hope everything fine with her and keep contact oh.
CSLee (smeagol??)
Also working as NPI engineer?? in Flex. Previously said wanna resign but now still continue to serve in Flex. Hope you finally find what you really want in this company. Become thinner and thinner recently, don’t so dedicated to your job oh. Must take care your health.
KKSia (SKII)
Should be working as Equipment enginner in Flex also. Everyday facing all the lifeless machine :P Heard wanna change company already because starting to feel bore about current job. Hope you can get a job in Melaka la…..Qimonda or Infineon also not bad ma.:) Keep contact.
PPLoh (Lou Poh)
Previously suddently resigned from 1st company. No one know what is the reason (may be some know :P), but hope everything fine with this cheerful gal. Now already got a job in KL and heard rumor that already not available??? Really?? Anyway, wish you a very good luck in your job and life there. Also change a lot if compare to above pic.
SPChing
Working as xxxxxxx?? Engineer in Agilent Penang. Early stage seem like always go to meeting nia, but heard that will start busy already because someone is leaving the company soon and she need to hander the person’s job. Personality still the same (at least what I feel), a good gal waiting someone to approaches her. :P
MHWong (me)
Currently working in Infineon Kulim as Process Integrated Engineer. Still not sure what he want in the future and foreseen will face a relation problem coming soon. Just decided to continue serve in Infineon and rejected offer from Petronas. Smart or foolish?? Most of the time feel lonely in Kulim, dunno what’s the reason. But hope to have someone who can know what he feel and can share the feeling. Hope he can finally get what he want and God bless.
Monday, April 30, 2007
夜深人静
人，是不是都会在无所事事的时候无私乱想？想起来我们都已经认识彼此多年了，曾经何时我们无所不谈，每天都很期望知道你的消息。每当收到你的短信时真的很兴奋。自认有想过要追求过你，也有了实际的行动，可惜都失败了。也许我们真的是有缘无份吧。
就这样我有了自己的另一半，你也在不久的过后也深深的被他吸引了。那时的我真的很享受第一次的恋爱。我猜你也是一样吧！同时，对你的认识也越来越迷糊了。
毕业后没想到你还会留在这儿工作。也许因为彼此的伴侣都不在身旁，加上在新的工作环境又没有很好的朋友。我们的关系就越来越好了。也许这就是寂寞的缘故吧。不知不觉地，我习惯了有你在我的身旁。你呢？会有这样的感觉吗？
记得你曾经对我说你不要让一个人影响你每天的心情，所以你都会尝试认识多一些朋友。但是你有没有发觉每当我们在一起时，你都会很高兴？还是这是我的错觉呢？和你在一起久了就越来越感受到你很像我心目中的女神。一直都跟自己说不可有这样的想法，因为这样是很对不起自己的另一半的。。。
直到有一天你告诉我和他分手了，我都还一直的鼓励你和他和好。但心目中真的是这样的想法吗？也就是这样的缘故，我们也越来越常通讯了。每天我都习惯听到你的笑声了。
一年后，他回来了，你也接受回他了。感觉上好像一点心酸的，也许我真地对你有点感觉了。你呢？我可以肯定地说你现在一定很快乐的，现在在你心目中也许根本就没有我的存在吧。也难怪你的，我只不过是你的一位普通朋友罢了吧。
一切回到夜深人静，我会慢慢的习惯不再每次送短信给你。也许你就不会察觉到有一个人慢慢的开始对你有点感觉然后却把它埋藏起来。也许你更本就不会看到我写的这篇短章吧！就算你看到了，你会觉得那个可爱的女孩就是你吗？
就这样我有了自己的另一半，你也在不久的过后也深深的被他吸引了。那时的我真的很享受第一次的恋爱。我猜你也是一样吧！同时，对你的认识也越来越迷糊了。
毕业后没想到你还会留在这儿工作。也许因为彼此的伴侣都不在身旁，加上在新的工作环境又没有很好的朋友。我们的关系就越来越好了。也许这就是寂寞的缘故吧。不知不觉地，我习惯了有你在我的身旁。你呢？会有这样的感觉吗？
记得你曾经对我说你不要让一个人影响你每天的心情，所以你都会尝试认识多一些朋友。但是你有没有发觉每当我们在一起时，你都会很高兴？还是这是我的错觉呢？和你在一起久了就越来越感受到你很像我心目中的女神。一直都跟自己说不可有这样的想法，因为这样是很对不起自己的另一半的。。。
直到有一天你告诉我和他分手了，我都还一直的鼓励你和他和好。但心目中真的是这样的想法吗？也就是这样的缘故，我们也越来越常通讯了。每天我都习惯听到你的笑声了。
一年后，他回来了，你也接受回他了。感觉上好像一点心酸的，也许我真地对你有点感觉了。你呢？我可以肯定地说你现在一定很快乐的，现在在你心目中也许根本就没有我的存在吧。也难怪你的，我只不过是你的一位普通朋友罢了吧。
一切回到夜深人静，我会慢慢的习惯不再每次送短信给你。也许你就不会察觉到有一个人慢慢的开始对你有点感觉然后却把它埋藏起来。也许你更本就不会看到我写的这篇短章吧！就算你看到了，你会觉得那个可爱的女孩就是你吗？
Thursday, April 19, 2007
爱你却让我疲惫至极
爱永远没有错,但爱有时候需要学会放弃.
缘份尽分，我不能强求；你要走了，我无力挽留......
我记得离开你时的那个日子，没有星星的月夜……
不知道我还有没有机会再很近很近的靠近你，我会痛快地哭一场。其实男儿有泪是没有罪的，因为男儿一样有感情。对么？
转自：雨后池塘
缘份尽分，我不能强求；你要走了，我无力挽留......
我记得离开你时的那个日子，没有星星的月夜……
不知道我还有没有机会再很近很近的靠近你，我会痛快地哭一场。其实男儿有泪是没有罪的，因为男儿一样有感情。对么？
转自：雨后池塘
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
答应我,看完了,不允许哭!
和蓝分手了，蓝是个很好的女孩，很漂亮也很温柔，虽然很多朋友说我离开她很傻，可我还是放手了，虽然我很舍不的。 第一天， 她没有起床，把自己用被子捂的严严实实的，她宿舍的人都不敢去安慰她，她一天都没有吃饭，连刷牙洗脸都没有，晚上睡觉的时候我听到她在被子里抽泣。 第二天， 今天她吃饭了，是她的宿舍同学强制性的让她吃的，她的眼眶红红的，我总说她是个爱哭鬼，她每次都噘着小嘴说她不是。 第三天，今天她穿的很妖艳，走进一家酒吧，喝了好多酒，用一种很诱惑的眼光环视全场，好多人上来搭腔“小姐，你好漂亮啊”。她喝了很多，当一个年纪可以做她爸爸的男人对她说“小姐，我送你回家吧”的时候她把手中的酒全泼在他的脸上，那个该死的老头扬起他的手掌就要打下去的时候，小睦他们来了，救了蓝，这一切我都知道，我就在酒吧的一个角落里看着。 第四天， 今天她早早就起床了，忙忙碌碌一上午，然后把自己关在浴室里好久，当舍友们踹门进去的时候都惊呼到：好干净啊。 第五天， 她开始学习了，其实她原来学习很好，我们开始后受我影响她的成绩也退步了，这也好，转移一下注意力，恢复的也快。 三个月后。。。。她做了学生会主席，她越来越能干，也开朗了不少，马上她就要考研了。 一年后。。。。。在她身边的男人很多，比我优秀的也很多，可她根本没在意过，不过她和凌很好，校园里传他们的关系很暧昧。她只是把他当哥哥，可是流言是挡不住的。 三年后。。。。。她要结婚了，新郎是凌，她在写结婚请贴，一张，两张，三张，，，写到第十二张的时候她哭了，趴在桌上眼泪完全抑制不住，我上前一看，所有的喜贴新郎写的都是我的名字。 我也很想哭，可是鬼魂是不能哭的，我没有眼泪。 三年前，我横穿马路，遇上车祸，手里提着要给她庆祝生日的蛋糕．．．．．．转自：雨后池塘（www.YuHou.net） ...nice webpage
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Hurt....
Today I really not in a mood. It is really a sad day.
What will you do when your someone you love told you these:
1) I found out that i feel more happy when alone and no need to think of any relationship
2) This week I already planned to go do facial with my friend and I feel not very well, so dont come to find me. I will feel presure.
3) I want to tell you that in near future i might be reject you as my bf since i enjoy one person life now and i tell you earlier so that you wont blame me later.
4) I dont want more people to know our relationship because I dont want to explain to them/ dont want them to say anything when i broke up with you.
5) If you planned to find me, pls let me know earlier so that i make sure dont have appointment with my friends.
6) I will not have time to accompany you because i have date with my friend. So, pls dont come to find me.
7) I feel no mood this week and dont want you to find me.
8) I have no confidence in this relationship, so pls dont blame me if we brake up.
What will you do? Do you ever face these before? Are this normal for a relationship?
What will you do when your someone you love told you these:
1) I found out that i feel more happy when alone and no need to think of any relationship
2) This week I already planned to go do facial with my friend and I feel not very well, so dont come to find me. I will feel presure.
3) I want to tell you that in near future i might be reject you as my bf since i enjoy one person life now and i tell you earlier so that you wont blame me later.
4) I dont want more people to know our relationship because I dont want to explain to them/ dont want them to say anything when i broke up with you.
5) If you planned to find me, pls let me know earlier so that i make sure dont have appointment with my friends.
6) I will not have time to accompany you because i have date with my friend. So, pls dont come to find me.
7) I feel no mood this week and dont want you to find me.
8) I have no confidence in this relationship, so pls dont blame me if we brake up.
What will you do? Do you ever face these before? Are this normal for a relationship?
Monday, December 11, 2006
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Finally....
Finally I found it again!!! Yesterday went to attend praise and worship at St.Anne church, finally I found back YOU, I have found back YOU my GOD!!! First time I relax in peace within the holy spirit, is really a very touching and relaxing. Although people sing all around, but I still can feel you is beside me and I really give all my soul and thought to you. This is a really perfect rest I ever have. JESUS is Gloria, gloria, gloria is YOU!!!
Yesterday my TT told me, in this world, there is a word shared by all different speaking language, and the word is ALLELUYA!!! I LOVE you my JESUS. Thanks Jesus, thanks for not letting your sheep alone....I know you never leave we all......
Yesterday my TT told me, in this world, there is a word shared by all different speaking language, and the word is ALLELUYA!!! I LOVE you my JESUS. Thanks Jesus, thanks for not letting your sheep alone....I know you never leave we all......
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Confuse....
Today just finish review with my director. Now i understand why people said almost all director from Chxxtxd always didnt promote his/her employee. This review can say standard nia, no outstanding. Work till wanna die only get rank C!!! WTF. Somemore dont let me change department, somemore say if i stay, sure will have a bright future.....but.....rank C!!!buxxshxt la. Talk cock!!?? Then somemore went to tell my TT that he have a very good expectation on me, and give me very good review....izit Rank C is good review?? Lolz...pening...then my TT come and ask me about this, what u expect me to say...sien nia
luckily today TT told me he wont go liao....will stay here to take over all SF team...luckily still have somemore guild me. Aii...this director ha....when wanna retire? Faster lei.....i think wont easy to get promote compare to others department if he still at here...aii....maximum 1 year la...then bye bye lo...
luckily today TT told me he wont go liao....will stay here to take over all SF team...luckily still have somemore guild me. Aii...this director ha....when wanna retire? Faster lei.....i think wont easy to get promote compare to others department if he still at here...aii....maximum 1 year la...then bye bye lo...
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Tired....
Suddenly feel lonely here. Izit working life is like this? Everyday I have lots of things to do and no doubt that i can learn lots of knowledge. But, I still feel like there is something that I still miss here. I also dunno what is it. GOD, pls help me. My life now seem like become routine already. What is the thing I still miss? Friendship? Love? Satisfaction? Izit this is the job I want the most? What should I do my father? The only thing I can do now is to let you plan all the things for me. Pls dont let me alone my lord.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
无思乱想（一）
晚上11时15分，“痴心绝对”在耳边响起。忽然有一丝丝的寂寞与感慨。长距离的爱情真的是很考验你们的耐心与坚定的心。工作的时间真的真的過得好快，已经是三个月出了。
回想起，我们从认识到成为伴侣已经将近三年了。这三年里，开心的，愉快的，悲伤的都一一的发生在我们之间。其实一直很想告诉你我以往的感情世界。，不知道你是否已经察觉了吗?在认识你之前曾经对三位女生有过一丝丝的感觉。
第一位是在中学时期认识的，和他真的是一对超好的异性朋友。那时可以说无时无刻我们都在一起，不知是天意还是刚巧，每一个学年都和他同班又被安排坐在一起。那时的我们无所不谈，差不多每天都通电话。学校里的朋友都以为我们真的是一对情侣。几年前回到母校去拜访老师时才知道原来他们也都这么想。告诉老师我和你是情侣时，老师竟然问那么他呢？？哈哈!!现在回想起来，那时的我们真的是好得有点“过火”了，但是为什么我对他没有一点点的感觉呢？直到中五毕业时才开始觉得对她依依不舍。现在有时还会想起为什么那时的我不会勇敢的回答她说我爱她呢？是不是这样就没了这份缘份呢？还是这是注定的呢？现在的我们都已经有自己的工作和伴侣了，联系也少了。希望她过得好好的。
畘柟是我第二位对她有感觉的女生。认识她时觉得她真的有点傻傻又呆呆的，但是真的很可爱，天真。对她的感觉就好像一见钟情。从此就一直默默耕耘的在她身旁追求她。那时的我真是天真，每天都跟着她们一大帮姐妹。以为这样就可以慢慢的让她注意到我。一切一切都错了，原来她对我完前没有一丝的感觉。还记得送给她的第一份生日礼物就从此消失灭迹了。完前没看她用过，也许她就根本没拆过那份礼物吧！也许她已经把它传送给他人了吧！那时心里真的有一阵阵的伤痛，可是对她的感觉还是一样那么深。真想骂自己为什么真么自作多情！！难道她对我真的没有一点点的感觉吗？就这样两年过去了，而我还是老样子的一直在追求她直到一次旁晚散步时才知道自己是没有机会的了。那时的我真的很想哭，可是奇怪的是回到宿舍后也没跟朋友多说话就这样睡着了。这段感情就这样永远被我埋藏在心底处了。现在的我们依然是朋友。
佩琦是我高中时的同窗，她是一位蛮静的女生，也是一位很帮得忙的好朋友。对她的感觉在起初时就好像一般的朋友一样，一起上课，一起做作业到分享各自的想法。久而久之就慢慢的成为很融洽的朋友，静静地她其实有很多心事想跟朋友倾诉却又不敢踏出第一步。就这样我们成为彼此感情倾诉的对象。还记得第一次失念时她是第一位安慰我的人。永远都会记得她的鼓励，‘为什么你这么快放弃呢？你是有机会的。也许还有更好的在等着你呢。’谢谢你佩琦。在高中时的生涯可以说我们每一次都会分配到同一组做作业。对她的感觉是在认识你后才开始的，那时的我们分隔两地，真的感到很寂寞。那时她的陪伴成了我每日的习惯，感觉上好像每天和她通电话成了日常生活。直到那一次，我们因作业争吵了一阵子，互不睬对方。直到她发了一则短讯‘其实很想跟你说原来你在我心目中的地位是很重要的，我们不要不睬对方了好吗？’顿时我的心就好像被融化了，我也发现其实平时很注重她的。如果当时的回复只是简简单单的一句‘好’那么什么问题也没有了。偏偏的就像她表白了，当时的我才和你走在一起，其实我也应该了解到她的个性，她是不可能会‘抢’别人的东西的人。她考虑了三天后最后还是决定做回朋友，可惜我们的感情也一样跌入谷底的深处。没有了以往的内心深处的倾诉，没了每天的通电话，也没了以往的亲切。以后每次见面时也都有一点点的尴尬。也许她就是我的其中之一的遗憾吧！很想说有你是幸福的，很想说你真的忘记了。。。。
回想起，我们从认识到成为伴侣已经将近三年了。这三年里，开心的，愉快的，悲伤的都一一的发生在我们之间。其实一直很想告诉你我以往的感情世界。，不知道你是否已经察觉了吗?在认识你之前曾经对三位女生有过一丝丝的感觉。
第一位是在中学时期认识的，和他真的是一对超好的异性朋友。那时可以说无时无刻我们都在一起，不知是天意还是刚巧，每一个学年都和他同班又被安排坐在一起。那时的我们无所不谈，差不多每天都通电话。学校里的朋友都以为我们真的是一对情侣。几年前回到母校去拜访老师时才知道原来他们也都这么想。告诉老师我和你是情侣时，老师竟然问那么他呢？？哈哈!!现在回想起来，那时的我们真的是好得有点“过火”了，但是为什么我对他没有一点点的感觉呢？直到中五毕业时才开始觉得对她依依不舍。现在有时还会想起为什么那时的我不会勇敢的回答她说我爱她呢？是不是这样就没了这份缘份呢？还是这是注定的呢？现在的我们都已经有自己的工作和伴侣了，联系也少了。希望她过得好好的。
畘柟是我第二位对她有感觉的女生。认识她时觉得她真的有点傻傻又呆呆的，但是真的很可爱，天真。对她的感觉就好像一见钟情。从此就一直默默耕耘的在她身旁追求她。那时的我真是天真，每天都跟着她们一大帮姐妹。以为这样就可以慢慢的让她注意到我。一切一切都错了，原来她对我完前没有一丝的感觉。还记得送给她的第一份生日礼物就从此消失灭迹了。完前没看她用过，也许她就根本没拆过那份礼物吧！也许她已经把它传送给他人了吧！那时心里真的有一阵阵的伤痛，可是对她的感觉还是一样那么深。真想骂自己为什么真么自作多情！！难道她对我真的没有一点点的感觉吗？就这样两年过去了，而我还是老样子的一直在追求她直到一次旁晚散步时才知道自己是没有机会的了。那时的我真的很想哭，可是奇怪的是回到宿舍后也没跟朋友多说话就这样睡着了。这段感情就这样永远被我埋藏在心底处了。现在的我们依然是朋友。
佩琦是我高中时的同窗，她是一位蛮静的女生，也是一位很帮得忙的好朋友。对她的感觉在起初时就好像一般的朋友一样，一起上课，一起做作业到分享各自的想法。久而久之就慢慢的成为很融洽的朋友，静静地她其实有很多心事想跟朋友倾诉却又不敢踏出第一步。就这样我们成为彼此感情倾诉的对象。还记得第一次失念时她是第一位安慰我的人。永远都会记得她的鼓励，‘为什么你这么快放弃呢？你是有机会的。也许还有更好的在等着你呢。’谢谢你佩琦。在高中时的生涯可以说我们每一次都会分配到同一组做作业。对她的感觉是在认识你后才开始的，那时的我们分隔两地，真的感到很寂寞。那时她的陪伴成了我每日的习惯，感觉上好像每天和她通电话成了日常生活。直到那一次，我们因作业争吵了一阵子，互不睬对方。直到她发了一则短讯‘其实很想跟你说原来你在我心目中的地位是很重要的，我们不要不睬对方了好吗？’顿时我的心就好像被融化了，我也发现其实平时很注重她的。如果当时的回复只是简简单单的一句‘好’那么什么问题也没有了。偏偏的就像她表白了，当时的我才和你走在一起，其实我也应该了解到她的个性，她是不可能会‘抢’别人的东西的人。她考虑了三天后最后还是决定做回朋友，可惜我们的感情也一样跌入谷底的深处。没有了以往的内心深处的倾诉，没了每天的通电话，也没了以往的亲切。以后每次见面时也都有一点点的尴尬。也许她就是我的其中之一的遗憾吧！很想说有你是幸福的，很想说你真的忘记了。。。。
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
懈后
懈后,一个不知为什么我这么喜欢的词,也许就是喜欢吧!没其它的原因.想一想,以你第一次的亲密接触就在22年前/693792000秒前吧....没想到第一次就这样轻易的给了你.不知该高兴还是伤心.也许当时的我已经不被这个世俗的情感所影响了,因为有你在身旁,我已经真的很满足了.不在乎天长地老,海枯石烂,只在乎曾经拥有!!
时间慢慢地流失,人的思想也慢慢的成长了.而我们的曾经开始迷糊了....... 慢慢地慢慢地,我开始忘了你......而我对你的印象,还有我们曾经的世言也一样开始被淡忘了........我们的约会也慢慢的从每分每秒到每个礼拜一次的见面了......
就这样我们开始意见不合,争执也越来越多了....那天下午,我做了一个白色的梦,梦见我们永远友好,梦见我们再也不需要悲伤,醒来之后,我发现自己又有了......哭泣的能力......究竟我们要这样到何时呢???也许我该放手了,或许说我选择了离开你......离开了你以后也许会感到难过,少了你也许会不知所措,但我的心中有一田向日葵,你放心去飞,我会好好过的。
也许是主的安排，在我的大学生涯里我们又见面了。还记得第一次遇回你的时候，那种气氛真的难以形容。你甜蜜的笑容、可爱的脸孔、还有傻傻又纯洁的行止真的让我看痴了。。。。。。我发觉自己又再一次深深的被你吸引了。难道我们命中注定要在一起吗？我真的注定做你的仆人了，因为在我心目中，你是至高无上的、你是谦卑的、你是让这世界都瞻仰的。还有你是最伟大的，因为你造就了我，让我明白自己是为了什么而活的。我永远爱你！！！
从那时起，我就一直跟随你。无论你到哪里我都会一直陪伴你，因为你就是我，我就是你！从新跟你在一起的日子里让我学习到许许多多的道理也让我明白到“爱”的真理！因为你，我认识了一帮新的朋友、一帮至今已经成为我的死党的家伙。是你让我学会了如何去爱人。回想起我们的已往，真的不能不赞美主的全能。两位完全没有关系的人竟然会在一个人生的小插曲认识了。两条平行线真的会交叉在一起！还记得第一次见你是在圣经的安排下，那时的我还有些腼腆，不敢和你多说话，只能一直假装不经意的看你一下。真是的，想起就好笑。幸好主让我鼓起勇气回来后跟你交往，是主让我们见证爱的存在、让我们一起为主来发光、为主来理想。耶苏，我爱您！！！
时间慢慢地流失,人的思想也慢慢的成长了.而我们的曾经开始迷糊了....... 慢慢地慢慢地,我开始忘了你......而我对你的印象,还有我们曾经的世言也一样开始被淡忘了........我们的约会也慢慢的从每分每秒到每个礼拜一次的见面了......
就这样我们开始意见不合,争执也越来越多了....那天下午,我做了一个白色的梦,梦见我们永远友好,梦见我们再也不需要悲伤,醒来之后,我发现自己又有了......哭泣的能力......究竟我们要这样到何时呢???也许我该放手了,或许说我选择了离开你......离开了你以后也许会感到难过,少了你也许会不知所措,但我的心中有一田向日葵,你放心去飞,我会好好过的。
也许是主的安排，在我的大学生涯里我们又见面了。还记得第一次遇回你的时候，那种气氛真的难以形容。你甜蜜的笑容、可爱的脸孔、还有傻傻又纯洁的行止真的让我看痴了。。。。。。我发觉自己又再一次深深的被你吸引了。难道我们命中注定要在一起吗？我真的注定做你的仆人了，因为在我心目中，你是至高无上的、你是谦卑的、你是让这世界都瞻仰的。还有你是最伟大的，因为你造就了我，让我明白自己是为了什么而活的。我永远爱你！！！
从那时起，我就一直跟随你。无论你到哪里我都会一直陪伴你，因为你就是我，我就是你！从新跟你在一起的日子里让我学习到许许多多的道理也让我明白到“爱”的真理！因为你，我认识了一帮新的朋友、一帮至今已经成为我的死党的家伙。是你让我学会了如何去爱人。回想起我们的已往，真的不能不赞美主的全能。两位完全没有关系的人竟然会在一个人生的小插曲认识了。两条平行线真的会交叉在一起！还记得第一次见你是在圣经的安排下，那时的我还有些腼腆，不敢和你多说话，只能一直假装不经意的看你一下。真是的，想起就好笑。幸好主让我鼓起勇气回来后跟你交往，是主让我们见证爱的存在、让我们一起为主来发光、为主来理想。耶苏，我爱您！！！
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